It's Good to have Less Things I Believe in, now I'm more Focused...

Utterly dismayed...

By my mother.

I had my dinner just now. While eating I was thinking of XXX beating Jingheng up during recess today, so I thought I would want to share my thoughts on this XXX person with my mother. I hesitated, but I decided to do it in the end. And so I did...

Jingheng is a truly a strong person, one of the strongest I have ever seen. And when I say 'strong' here I am referring to his mental strength. He didn't retaliate, not even say a bad word although XXX dragged and punched him around the classroom. I respect him. He was standing there silently, I guess he was disappointed and angry, he withstood it. I remember telling him this, "Why do you still want to be friends with XXX even when you know he does this to you? Do you think this is a real 'friend'? If it's just a 'fake friend', why BE friends with him?" He is my friend, I should not just watch.

At this point, my mother said, "I know you are trying to help, but when you go out to society in the future, do not mind others' business too much, someone else might just badmouth you because of that and you might get into trouble. Sometimes it's not so easy to help someone. And don't even think about changing XXX, it's impossible for someone to just change because you ask for it." I know she said that for my own good, but I really can't take a sentence like that; it is against my character. So for the first time I revealed my thoughts to her. "It's not that people can't change, it's because some people are too weak."

Then suddenly she got impatient and angry, and shouted a fallacy at me, "Then you're talking as if it's so easy! You say people can change, have you yourself changed? Don't you still play computer games? I'm telling you from my experience, stop being stubborn!" Is playing computer games wrong, or beating someone up wrong? How are you comparing that? And about the part where whether people can change, I'm still working my brain on it, 'cos I actually find it to be quite easy. And what my mother has experienced, I can understand that she is telling me for my own good, but our whole society is weak (I will talk about this in a later post).

Somehow, what she said was like doing her best to reduce my faith in her although she isn't aware of it herself. Don't worry, I do love my mother, I know how to control myself too... But for now, the only 2 kinds of people I really trust are myself and my friends. But it can be a good thing that now I am somehow more focused in my beliefs.

I shall end by wishing Jingheng the best of luck.

And to my friends out there: Have faith in me, 'cos I really care about you, I am your friend.

I Just Need Another Spark to Write A Good Post, Where is It?

Hi, below is a poem/verse/prose (I don't know how I should call it, maybe it's none of the above) that I have came up with, yes it's 100% original:

情初开, 梦相许, 似雁双飞, 胜过千万事。

人已散, 非己属, 各奔千秋, 何苦单相思?

单相思, 何时了, 来日方长, 莫要愁到老!

You can comment on it or give me some suggestions, totally welcomed.

And, I'm planning on taking 2 Science 2 Humanities in Sec 3. Don't know if can continue French... Of course I don't want to, but if i can't continue because my grades are too lousy, my mum will screw me upside down...

Some update on the forming of our DotA team...

Yeah it's confirmed we will form our team named XtRa. Me=XtRa.Panda [confirmed], Kimsong=XtRa.Phoenix [confirmed], and Marcus=XtRa.Prawn [should be confirmed...], Liangping is interested too...

Nothing much happened today... Screwed around during Chinese lesson when I was supposed to finish a compo in an hour. At last I rushed it in twenty minutes. I got my Chinese reading test paper back yesterday, and it was a bloody total failure. I got 22/25! Because I was reading the book instead of doing the test, then I had to rush the whole paper in 5 minutes so my last question was unfinished and I got 3 marks deducted from that question. I could have gotten full marks!

Also played a DotA game against public with Roy today, and he got to choose my hero since I lost to him in a bet during French class. He asked me to use Prophet and... GG although we had a very pro Nerubian Weaver.

Alright that's all and have a nice day people.

The Exponential Field

Yo!
I'm here for a while just to deliver a piece of good news that our unofficial DotA clan has been formed!

Name of our clan is XtRa (which actually stands for the word 'extra')!

The current members are:

Me (I'm Yuxuan lah) -- XtRa.Panda
Kimsong -------------- XtRa.Phoenix
and Marcus ----------- XtRa.Pampers (... I'm not sure if he's confirmed but this is what he has said so far...)

We would invite Jeekinn to join once he reaches around Kimsong's standard or better, which I think wouldn't take too long!

And please, we are calling out (of course to people that are acquainted with us in one way or another) to you people to join our XtRa clan!

Actually we sincerely want Waichong too but he doesn't seem to be interested...
That's all for now. I will update with more changes to our clan stuff! (Although I know few who read my blog would be even interested...)

Are YOU Interested?

Hey guys (I don't think this can appeal to any girls I know anyway) are anyone of you interested in organising a DotA team?

It's not about any competitive gameplay or what, it shall just be a unified identity, well, let's say a sense of belonging or whatsoever. It is not limited to five people (well as I've said it's not a competition we'll just have it as a sort of guild/clan/company). Also in my opinion it would be quite cool.
It's nothing much, if you're interested, all there's to do for each of us is to create an individual account with a name using the format below:

[TeamName].[PlayerName]
(e.g. ABC.Yuxuan)

The team name will be suggested and voted by the members, while the player names will be decided yourselves and reported so everyone identifies each other. We will also then decide everyone's roles, for example, leader (this role is necessary in Captain's Mode and Captain's Draft Mode), tanker, DPS, supporter, initiator, ganker, disabler etc. This proposal is open to everyone, so please tell me personally (email or MSN too if you like) if you're interested. We will form our team once the number reaches 3. Please show some support and show some love. You can tell me if you're interested through my blog shoutbox but please only report when you're decided.

独唱情歌 Singing the Love Song Alone

[Title: 独唱情歌]

[Album: Fighting!生存之道]
词： 姚若龙 曲： Tank
歌手： Tank, Selina

TANK: 下弦月 星满天 像谁泪涟涟
一阵风 一首歌 摇晃思念
只恨年少爱逞强
为小事轻言离别

Selina: 在春天 过冬天 张眼睛冬眠
一颗心 一种病 不停落叶
旧情怎么那么长
打了绕了几千结

合： 有没有一把剑
可以真斩了藕断丝连
有没有一条线
能缝 扯散了缘

合： 独唱情歌 最苦涩
逃不了的折磨
当生死相许说出口
别后悬念依旧
独唱情歌 最苦涩
管不住的离愁
赶下眉头又上心头
我好想再暖和 你手

TANK: 下弦月 星满天 像谁泪涟涟
她微笑 她捧花 都看不见
我只听着你从前
捧着声张的誓言

Selina: 在春天 过冬天 张眼睛冬眠
看倔强 带幸福 越走越远
有时不愿让一点
最后却失去一切

合： 有没有一把剑
可以真斩了藕断丝连
有没有一条线
能缝扯散了缘

合： 独唱情歌 最苦涩
逃不了的折磨
当生死相许说出口
别后悬念依旧
独唱情歌 最苦涩
管不住的离愁
赶下眉头又上心头
我好想再暖和 你手

Selina: 我站在柳絮扎眼 寂寞胡同
谁在弄堂忽然 沉默泪流

合： 独唱情歌 最苦涩
逃不了的折磨
当生死相许说出口
别后悬念依旧
独唱情歌 最苦涩
管不住的离愁
赶下眉头又上心头
我好想再暖和 你手


It's a nice song!

OK I just spared time out of my BUSY schedule to do this

Well hi everyone.

This morning, Ms Grace Chong returned for her first biology lesson after being quarantined for the first week. So I felt abit "wth" no more slack lessons, and began worrying about whether I can do well in this subject (I am starting to dislike science). Just when I'm having this sort of internal struggle, Ms Grace shot at me a bolt out of the blue, " Yuxuan! Why don't you have a pencil in your hand! You are supposed to copy down what you should have in your file!"

Then I was like "ok I'll take them down".
But what she said seemed to remind her of something (hmm, something) then she shout at me once again, "where is your chemistry file! ('cos she taught us chemistry last term and we were supposed to hand up our files to her before the term ended) You haven't handed it up!" And she looked at me as if she anticipated me not to hand my file up since long ago.

Wanna know the truth? I did hand it up last term. (She SAYS she didn't get Soe Lwin's as well) I just detest people who like to assume things, and even worse, wrongly accuse people because they assume. Sorry but I'm the type of person who doesn't like to explain much, I live happily as long as I know I did nothing wrong.

Well that should be all, and I want to say I'm always glad to have you friends out there. =D

My Blog is not Dead

I know this is lame but I have to tell you guys and girls out there that this blog isn't dead yet. I'm just too busy recently. I'll definitely start blogging again latest by the end of next week. So, those who have been anticipating for new posts, please be patient and forgive me for this! xD

Well there's nothing else, just a brief message here: respect others and be nice to your friends!

Wish everyone happy