Now a Chinese Song! (Must-try!)

Alright here comes my favourite song! It's a chinese song -- Dimples, by JJ Lin & A Sa.
You must listen to this song! You'll love it!

小酒窝——林俊杰 蔡卓妍
作词:王雅君 作曲:林俊杰

JJ: 我 还在寻找 一个依靠 和一个拥抱
谁 为我祈祷 为我烦恼
为我生气 为我闹
A Sa: 幸福开始有预兆
缘分让我们慢慢紧靠
然后孤单被吞没了
无聊变得有话聊 有变化了

合: 小酒窝 长睫毛 是你最美的记号
我每天睡不着 想念你的微笑
你不知道 你对我多么重要
有了你生命完整的刚好

小酒窝 长睫毛 迷人的无可救药
我放慢了步调 感觉像是喝醉了
终于找到 心有灵犀的美好
一辈子暖暖的好
我永远爱你到老

A Sa: 幸福开始有预兆
缘分让我们慢慢紧靠
然后孤单被吞没了
无聊变得有话聊 有变化了

合: 小酒窝 长睫毛 是你最美的记号
我每天睡不着 想念你的微笑
你不知道 你对我多么重要
有了你生命完整的刚好

小酒窝 长睫毛 迷人的无可救药
我放慢了步调 感觉像是喝醉了
终于找到 心有灵犀的美好
一辈子暖暖的好
我永远爱你到老

合: 小酒窝 长睫毛 迷人的无可救药
我放慢了步调 感觉像是喝醉了
终于找到 心有灵犀的美好
一辈子暖暖的好
我永远爱你到老


It's such a nice and romantic song!

Up and Down

LOL today my mum returned home all of a sudden and spotted my multi-gaming, I was playing Naruto on PSP while waiting for my DotA game to load. You should know what happened next! Wooooooots. *Pia* *Pia* *Pili Pala Pili Pala Pia Pia Pia* 100-hit Combo! OK I know I'm pretending to be positive... Nothing much about the beating, used to it. But I detest her way of scolding; I said I would have more free time in the next 1 or 2 weeks so I could watch some CDs (those educational films of historical places, I just don't wanna waste the money used to buy them) yesterday night, and today she used that against me. She said I say I would be more free and play more computer games. (Anyway was she arch enemy with computer games in her previous life? Ok whatever.)

And actually the last time she beat me up because I played computer games, she told me to only ever play computer games in my next life. Do you understand how hurtful that was? I mean, it's not that it hurts because I'm not allowed to play computer games. It's the kind of thing she said, which is like, despairing.

Never mind, getting beaten up is not really that bad, but provided you have a very positive mindset. I seem to think about more things after I get beaten up! Well, I realised that there's much more things about your own soul or mind to treasure than to think about girls (or in girls' case boys) all day long; you should develop yourself before you even think about those things. It's just like you have to learn to walk before you learn to run. 'Babies' who learn to run before they learn to walk, fall, fall hard, fall painfully, and it might leave a scar on the 'baby' permanently. And I discovered that every inch my own mind and soul "develops" the more stupor I see in 'babies' mentioned above. However, I don't agree that I should really look down on them (or most of them in my case), because, well, everyone has gone through in one's life being a 'baby'.

Some people might not understand me. You don't really have to, you just have to think about what I said, think about it. Because to understand, you will need a failing parent who has inclination to violence, and a brain which is working well.

By the way, I was forced to say that my goal for my EoY result is 3.6, I was also forced to write an essay for my "wrongdoings, realisations, and goals". Well, to be honest with you, almost the whole essay was a lie. Why? Because I was forced to think and do things which are not my way, and I don't respect it.

Even now, as I use my computer, my mum is poking around now and then to check on what I am doing, and that's seriously getting on my nerves. Life can be sickening, if you are Yuxuan, but nature has its balances, and nature has made me an extremely positive person. I am a free thinker, but if you ask me what do I live by, I live by respect; if you ask me what do I believe in, I believe in nature. And no, I'm not a druid. I shall still be a free-thinker.

Do You Remember?

Oh well, wanted to write a "good" post but my good mood has limited its possible effectiveness, so I've decided not to try to write it for now. Just another usual Saturday, swimming in the morning and piano lesson in the afternoon.

And I suddenly realised water is so soft today.

Anyway I have a great song to share with you people. This song is really really great, you should listen to it.

Do You Remember -- by Aaron Carter:

Ohhhohhhh yeah
Ooooh
Oohohh
Yeahyeahyeah

Remember, we'd be up all night
Talking til' the morning light, yeayeahhh
Like the way, it used to be
Those simple days
Just you and me, mmmmm

I see ya' baby I know
What's on your mind
'Cause you look like you've
Got something to say

I may not say those words anymore
But maybe it just ain't my way

You ask me do I love you but...
Do you remember
Why I walked on water for you
Do you remember, my
First steps on the moon
Have you ever wondered why I
Gave three wishes to you
You ask the question
But the answer lies
In you, in you
The answer lies in you

Remember, we used to laugh and say
No one understood, our way
And there were times
When you would cry
While knocking on my door
And I was there to shelter your pain

I think baby you should
Get that off your mind
We can make it to a brighter day

I may not say those words anymore
But maybe I can make it my way
Yeahhh, Ooohhh...

You ask me do I love you but...
Do you remember
Why I walked on water for you
Do you remember, my
First steps on the moon
Have you ever wondered why I
Gave three wishes to you
You ask the question
But the answer lies
In you, in you
The answer lies in you

The answer, girl
Lies within your heart
Please take a look inside

You ask me do I love you but...
Do you remember
Why I walked on water for you
Do you remember, my
First steps on the moon
Have you ever wondered why I
Gave three wishes to you
You ask the question
But the answer lies
In you, in you
The answer lies in you

In you, in you
The answer lies in you
in you, in you
(Yeahhh)

Yo Yo Yo

Hello~

Yesterday was another normal day. Woke up earlier than usual because my mum slammed the door shut when she left the house, and because of a SMS which keeps buzzing at my ear (you know who you are). So I went to play a match of DotA...

I was on the Sentinel team and I random-ed Earthshaker, I was at the bottom lane with Tormented Soul against Storm Spirit and Phantom Lancer. Asshole Lancer keeps on spamming Spirit Lance at me. We eventually won the match because of our pro Shadow Fiend who even got a Divine Rapier, although I never got a perfect chance to do an uber-cool Echo Slam.

And then I had my breakfast and went for my swimming training late, so I stayed back after the lesson to do overtime practice. I raced with my instructor Mr Hoh 3 times of Butterfly-Backstroke-Frogstyle-Freestyle and when we finished it was like "WOAHHH~~~!!!" extremely exhausted, if you do swim you will know how tired I would have been. And I'm sorry to everyone and myself, I will never be late again!

So I went back home, played some Tower Defense and then I went for lunch, I hurriedly ate my lunch and went off for my piano lesson. Nothing happened during piano lesson except for a little girl who kept looking in from the door window and my teacher seemed a bit frustrated by that. I did well for the lesson so I felt glad.

Then I did many quizzes on Facebook in the night for fun because I felt too bored (I like doing quizzes xD).

Yup that's all.

I AM BACK (if u can guess what i mean by this)

Have you ever been treated awfully, or treated others awfully before? Well, even though doing this might be due to one's inner weakness, it is not entirely your fault.

Then why?

Because our society is too weak and immature.

If you just want a short and sweet explanation or example, it will be: the fact that Xiaxue's blog and those of the same kind are so popular shows that our society is weak, and immature.

"They want war, then we give them war! We charge, we fight, we die, in honour! We stain the battlefield with our glorious blood, for our kingdom!"
"We want a peaceful world where everyone lives happily, and by working together it will be achieved."

Which speech is more moralising and persuasive? Of course a normal person would say it's the first one. However, as you think again, you are actually being moralised over war but not peace, and being persuaded for violence instead of peace?

Courage, it is about withholding violence.

So now, let's move on back to Xiaxue's blog and those of the sort. We can link these blogs all the way to modern teenagers having this kind of thought of "we teenagers deserve our rightful position in the society, we must show people our way, adults shall not control or limit us, they will hear our voice!". That is an immature thought. No, it's not their fault, they are just victims. Adults shouldn't just ground them or cane them or scold them, but adults also shouldn't think it's just that they are kids who got mistaken in their minds and went the wrong way and try to help them while containing that kind of thought in mind.

Just because our society is too weak and immature itself, it lacks respect.

Elders don't respect minors, while teenagers don't respect adults. So eventually everybody gets devoured by this vicious cycle. All the weaknesses get passed around and influence young people, adults overlook their children's needs, thus resulting in the teenagers becoming rebellious and immatured people. When teenagers use the word "fuck", they don't just mean scolding, what they are trying to tell, and to tell adults especially, is that they don't care about the virtual and physical boundaries adults set for them, yes, "To hear their voice". Subsequently, the later generations of children get influenced by their seniors, they themselves would also most probably experience the same miseries, which actually stack up with what their seniors have showed them, and the vicious cycle goes on and on... on and on towards our moral doom. The current older teenagers will become our elderly, the youngers ones will become adults, and they will give birth to children. Then the whole world will be in resultant chaos after a long-term effect.

We need to improve culturally, religiously, technologically, intellectually, but our greatest need is to improve morally.

People do not dare to tell themselves that they are wrong, and they respond in ridiculous and petty ways when they are told so. People do not have the courage to look into the past with their very own way, their own power, and their own beliefs. They are afraid to be left out and always make themselves think like how others do, and that eventually become their own way, dragging them into the cruel vicious cycle.

I personally believe in change, I believe that we can improve, humanity is flawed, but humans are always able of improvement. We must not be weak to accept the truth that we are wrong in some ways, and then we go for change. A new era awaits us. I'm not a saviour, nor am I a paladin. I just wish to help...

With respect comes everything, sensibility, consideration, tolerance and so on... most importantly, as people can get along better with one another, there comes happiness, wouldn't our lives be more wonderful by then?

My Music Teacher Has Imba Singing!!

Hi Hi. I wish everyone to note that my poem/prose/verse/blah has gone through some minor changes:

情初开,梦相许,似雁双飞,胜过千万事。
人终散,非己属,各奔千秋,何苦单相思?
单相思,何时了,来日方长,莫要愁至老!

As you can see, the 2nd word of the 2nd stanza "已" has been changed to "终" so that now it doesn't sound awkward and now it has the first accent just like the 2nd word of the first stanza, also, "终" corresponds "初" showing the contrast of beginning and end.

The second change is in the last stanza, the 2nd last word, "到" has been changed to "至", there was no problem with "到" but I changed it to make it sound nicer and more proper.


And some updates on my DotA Team...

Liangping says that he wants to join XtRa, and he said he'll use the name XtRa.Pig (because we want all members to use animal names with the initial "P"). Well that's about all...

It's Good to have Less Things I Believe in, now I'm more Focused...

Utterly dismayed...

By my mother.

I had my dinner just now. While eating I was thinking of XXX beating Jingheng up during recess today, so I thought I would want to share my thoughts on this XXX person with my mother. I hesitated, but I decided to do it in the end. And so I did...

Jingheng is a truly a strong person, one of the strongest I have ever seen. And when I say 'strong' here I am referring to his mental strength. He didn't retaliate, not even say a bad word although XXX dragged and punched him around the classroom. I respect him. He was standing there silently, I guess he was disappointed and angry, he withstood it. I remember telling him this, "Why do you still want to be friends with XXX even when you know he does this to you? Do you think this is a real 'friend'? If it's just a 'fake friend', why BE friends with him?" He is my friend, I should not just watch.

At this point, my mother said, "I know you are trying to help, but when you go out to society in the future, do not mind others' business too much, someone else might just badmouth you because of that and you might get into trouble. Sometimes it's not so easy to help someone. And don't even think about changing XXX, it's impossible for someone to just change because you ask for it." I know she said that for my own good, but I really can't take a sentence like that; it is against my character. So for the first time I revealed my thoughts to her. "It's not that people can't change, it's because some people are too weak."

Then suddenly she got impatient and angry, and shouted a fallacy at me, "Then you're talking as if it's so easy! You say people can change, have you yourself changed? Don't you still play computer games? I'm telling you from my experience, stop being stubborn!" Is playing computer games wrong, or beating someone up wrong? How are you comparing that? And about the part where whether people can change, I'm still working my brain on it, 'cos I actually find it to be quite easy. And what my mother has experienced, I can understand that she is telling me for my own good, but our whole society is weak (I will talk about this in a later post).

Somehow, what she said was like doing her best to reduce my faith in her although she isn't aware of it herself. Don't worry, I do love my mother, I know how to control myself too... But for now, the only 2 kinds of people I really trust are myself and my friends. But it can be a good thing that now I am somehow more focused in my beliefs.

I shall end by wishing Jingheng the best of luck.

And to my friends out there: Have faith in me, 'cos I really care about you, I am your friend.

I Just Need Another Spark to Write A Good Post, Where is It?

Hi, below is a poem/verse/prose (I don't know how I should call it, maybe it's none of the above) that I have came up with, yes it's 100% original:

情初开, 梦相许, 似雁双飞, 胜过千万事。

人已散, 非己属, 各奔千秋, 何苦单相思?

单相思, 何时了, 来日方长, 莫要愁到老!

You can comment on it or give me some suggestions, totally welcomed.

And, I'm planning on taking 2 Science 2 Humanities in Sec 3. Don't know if can continue French... Of course I don't want to, but if i can't continue because my grades are too lousy, my mum will screw me upside down...

Some update on the forming of our DotA team...

Yeah it's confirmed we will form our team named XtRa. Me=XtRa.Panda [confirmed], Kimsong=XtRa.Phoenix [confirmed], and Marcus=XtRa.Prawn [should be confirmed...], Liangping is interested too...

Nothing much happened today... Screwed around during Chinese lesson when I was supposed to finish a compo in an hour. At last I rushed it in twenty minutes. I got my Chinese reading test paper back yesterday, and it was a bloody total failure. I got 22/25! Because I was reading the book instead of doing the test, then I had to rush the whole paper in 5 minutes so my last question was unfinished and I got 3 marks deducted from that question. I could have gotten full marks!

Also played a DotA game against public with Roy today, and he got to choose my hero since I lost to him in a bet during French class. He asked me to use Prophet and... GG although we had a very pro Nerubian Weaver.

Alright that's all and have a nice day people.

The Exponential Field

Yo!
I'm here for a while just to deliver a piece of good news that our unofficial DotA clan has been formed!

Name of our clan is XtRa (which actually stands for the word 'extra')!

The current members are:

Me (I'm Yuxuan lah) -- XtRa.Panda
Kimsong -------------- XtRa.Phoenix
and Marcus ----------- XtRa.Pampers (... I'm not sure if he's confirmed but this is what he has said so far...)

We would invite Jeekinn to join once he reaches around Kimsong's standard or better, which I think wouldn't take too long!

And please, we are calling out (of course to people that are acquainted with us in one way or another) to you people to join our XtRa clan!

Actually we sincerely want Waichong too but he doesn't seem to be interested...
That's all for now. I will update with more changes to our clan stuff! (Although I know few who read my blog would be even interested...)

Are YOU Interested?

Hey guys (I don't think this can appeal to any girls I know anyway) are anyone of you interested in organising a DotA team?

It's not about any competitive gameplay or what, it shall just be a unified identity, well, let's say a sense of belonging or whatsoever. It is not limited to five people (well as I've said it's not a competition we'll just have it as a sort of guild/clan/company). Also in my opinion it would be quite cool.
It's nothing much, if you're interested, all there's to do for each of us is to create an individual account with a name using the format below:

[TeamName].[PlayerName]
(e.g. ABC.Yuxuan)

The team name will be suggested and voted by the members, while the player names will be decided yourselves and reported so everyone identifies each other. We will also then decide everyone's roles, for example, leader (this role is necessary in Captain's Mode and Captain's Draft Mode), tanker, DPS, supporter, initiator, ganker, disabler etc. This proposal is open to everyone, so please tell me personally (email or MSN too if you like) if you're interested. We will form our team once the number reaches 3. Please show some support and show some love. You can tell me if you're interested through my blog shoutbox but please only report when you're decided.

独唱情歌 Singing the Love Song Alone

[Title: 独唱情歌]

[Album: Fighting!生存之道]
词： 姚若龙 曲： Tank
歌手： Tank, Selina

TANK: 下弦月 星满天 像谁泪涟涟
一阵风 一首歌 摇晃思念
只恨年少爱逞强
为小事轻言离别

Selina: 在春天 过冬天 张眼睛冬眠
一颗心 一种病 不停落叶
旧情怎么那么长
打了绕了几千结

合： 有没有一把剑
可以真斩了藕断丝连
有没有一条线
能缝 扯散了缘

合： 独唱情歌 最苦涩
逃不了的折磨
当生死相许说出口
别后悬念依旧
独唱情歌 最苦涩
管不住的离愁
赶下眉头又上心头
我好想再暖和 你手

TANK: 下弦月 星满天 像谁泪涟涟
她微笑 她捧花 都看不见
我只听着你从前
捧着声张的誓言

Selina: 在春天 过冬天 张眼睛冬眠
看倔强 带幸福 越走越远
有时不愿让一点
最后却失去一切

合： 有没有一把剑
可以真斩了藕断丝连
有没有一条线
能缝扯散了缘

合： 独唱情歌 最苦涩
逃不了的折磨
当生死相许说出口
别后悬念依旧
独唱情歌 最苦涩
管不住的离愁
赶下眉头又上心头
我好想再暖和 你手

Selina: 我站在柳絮扎眼 寂寞胡同
谁在弄堂忽然 沉默泪流

合： 独唱情歌 最苦涩
逃不了的折磨
当生死相许说出口
别后悬念依旧
独唱情歌 最苦涩
管不住的离愁
赶下眉头又上心头
我好想再暖和 你手


It's a nice song!

OK I just spared time out of my BUSY schedule to do this

Well hi everyone.

This morning, Ms Grace Chong returned for her first biology lesson after being quarantined for the first week. So I felt abit "wth" no more slack lessons, and began worrying about whether I can do well in this subject (I am starting to dislike science). Just when I'm having this sort of internal struggle, Ms Grace shot at me a bolt out of the blue, " Yuxuan! Why don't you have a pencil in your hand! You are supposed to copy down what you should have in your file!"

Then I was like "ok I'll take them down".
But what she said seemed to remind her of something (hmm, something) then she shout at me once again, "where is your chemistry file! ('cos she taught us chemistry last term and we were supposed to hand up our files to her before the term ended) You haven't handed it up!" And she looked at me as if she anticipated me not to hand my file up since long ago.

Wanna know the truth? I did hand it up last term. (She SAYS she didn't get Soe Lwin's as well) I just detest people who like to assume things, and even worse, wrongly accuse people because they assume. Sorry but I'm the type of person who doesn't like to explain much, I live happily as long as I know I did nothing wrong.

Well that should be all, and I want to say I'm always glad to have you friends out there. =D

My Blog is not Dead

I know this is lame but I have to tell you guys and girls out there that this blog isn't dead yet. I'm just too busy recently. I'll definitely start blogging again latest by the end of next week. So, those who have been anticipating for new posts, please be patient and forgive me for this! xD

Well there's nothing else, just a brief message here: respect others and be nice to your friends!

Wish everyone happy